every single time i get to hold any type of relationship i fuck up. my parents think im a total low life, mental patient, dirtbag, etc. all because i told them i was hallucenating, and because i had anger problems and took that anger out in the wrong way. my friend think im a compulsive liar and am an idiot for what i’ve done in the past. all but one of my relationships end up with them dumping me and hating my guts. but they dont have the guts to tell me. i’ve broken promises, broken friendships, and broken myself. if i didn’t fuck up so many times maybe i’d be happy, maybe i’d have friends, and maybe id have trust from someone….